i just hate myself, i despise myself. I wear a probably 36/38 C/D cups, mostly C. I took a bra quiz on a bra website about what cup am i really and it says B..insecurities got worse. My insecurities have always been horrible but never about my boobs. i always thought i had big boobs until someday i believed i was flat chested.

i watch anime and honestly, that made me insecure, that was that start of my boob insecurities. i wish to be a f cup, a K cup, G cup, anything past Double D. Yes cartoons making me insecure is ridiculous but i can’t help but feel trash.

im 17 and even told my mom i want big boobs, that i hate my body, that i want surgery, i even get her to buy me fenugreek pills to help my boobs grow. nothing. i even feel like they shrink.

i’m fat. i weigh around 226, how is everything fat except my boobs and ass, even my double chin is fatter.

I search up how to love or how to be confident while being flat chested, nothing helps.

i see myself in the mirror and cry, stare at my boobs and cry and cry and sob. push up bras don’t do the trick anymore. i manifest and idek if it’s working.

i’ve thought about self harming and even committing all because of my boobs. i know it’s ridiculous over balls of fat, but they’re small little balls of fat that takes over my mind.

i don’t even know what to do anymore