I love him so much!!!

So backstory: I am 20 my boyfriend is a year older than me, we have been together for 3 years. I just turned 20 yesterday. I’m a virgin (or I was until last night) and he isn’t (he lost his before we were together) I didn’t want to wait till marriage but I wanted to make sure I was ready and I really knew that loved the person I was going to lose it to. And he was always more than ok with that, he wanted me to want it. And sometimes we would get close but I would always stop him, and he was always ok with that. I mean sometimes (jokingly) he would get sad because he had a boner but we would both just laugh (sometimes I gave him a hand job)

So yesterday was my 20th Bday and my bf took me out to an amazing dinner at an amazing restaurant, and got me the sweetest gifts. He spoiled me, it was amazing, I love him so much. And he also booked a super expensive beautiful, hotel room for the night (I don’t live at home anymore and he even asked my parents if it was ok) he already checked into the room before dinner and he stole one of my T-shirts and a pear of sweatpants so I would be comfortable after the dinner because I was all fancy in a nice dress. He planned everything, he was hinting at what he wanted to do but made it very clear that it was up to me. He went and sat on the bed while I went to the bathroom, took of my makeup, and put on my sweatpants. I was giving myself a pep talk in the mirror lol I wanted to have sex but I was kinda terrified lol aaaaaand I hate my body so I didn’t think I was ready for that. But I left the bathroom and went straight to him, I went and I started making out with him. I could tell he was very happy I did so lol. I have never masturbated so I’ve never had an orgasm, or really any sense of pleasure down there. He was amazing, he asked me so many times if I was sure. And if he could tell I was in pain he would do one of three things, he would stop, ask me if I wanted him to stop, or suck on my neck to try and distract me. He was so sweet and when I was fully naked I tried to cover myself and he would take my hands away so I couldn’t cover myself and he would tell me how beautiful I am. And he could tell I was terrified so he would tell me what he was going to do. He would promise me that it was going to feel good, and that I need to relax. He has obviously never herd me moan before, and I was honestly kinda embarrassed to lol but apparently he loves it when I moan. I had no idea when I was going to orgasm but he could tell so he would touch me more, and I was embarrassed at the sounds I made when I came but apparently he loved it lol. It was just amazing and he was so sweet I Couldn’t have asked for anyone better. He made me feel like I actually was beautiful.

It’s the Morning after lol and I joke up in his arms and I couldn’t help but smile. I do have to say I am pretty sore lol (I know he is going to tease me about that) I just love him so much and I wanted to share my night.

Please comment, I want to hear what you have to say. ❤️

Edit: it’s the day after I posted this and yup I was right! He is totally bugging me because I’m sore lmao. I love him so much!!!