Deciding not to try anymore

Hello,

I’m having an extremely hard time followed by very very dark thoughts.

After 6 months trying on Letrozole with PCOS, suddenly my SO doesn’t want to try anymore, and is not ready for a baby.

I am heartbroken. Being a mother is all I’ve ever wanted and part of me is considering continuing my journey without him. Another part of me doesn’t want to do anything without him. And another part of me doesn’t want to do anything anymore.

We’ve been struggling a lot lately, we went through a job transition that wasn’t exactly smooth and have been struggling more than anyone could guess. We’ve been stressed and he’s even told me that he has been thinking of leaving me.

I feel so broken, and lost, and unwilling to go on.