Extremely upset and annoyed with SO
At this point I’d rather just be single. This morning my boyfriend wakes up for work at 5 ish like he always does and gets in the shower in a light sleeper so I’m asleep but not just like every other morning for the past 5 years of our relationship (usually 20 minutes before he leaves we smoke a blunt together he leaves and I go back to seep and wake up again at 8). This morning he gets up showers, we enjoy our blunt and then he’s in the kitchen making sure everything for his lunch is ready. He asks did I wipe out his lunch box I say no I forgot *pause* I’m sorry *long ass pause* did you hear me . Nothing and then he comes in the bedroom talking about fuck man I can’t fucking hear you shut the fuck up you know I can’t fucking hear you and I’m already upset now cause like what the fuck it’s like 6am at this point he leaves for work in 5-10 minutes and I literally answered his question said sorry and asked if he could hear me I didn’t say anything anymore. So he gets all that off his chest and I just stare blankly and say I’m sorry you couldn’t hear me and I didn’t know and he goes it’s fine walls off to the bathroom he’s talking about something completely different i ask him what he text his aunt (related to what we were talking about) and I realize he’s brushing his teeth so I say when you’re done brushing your teeth obviously. He finishes and comes in and he’s mad again and says fuck bro you didn’t get it the first time stop fucking talking to me knowing damn well I couldn’t hear you I didn’t text my aunt (so he did hear me ??) and then goes you know I’m brushing my teeth why can’t you just shut the fuck yo you’re so damn Ansy it’s 6 in the morning just go back to sleep and I’m like bro I’m sorry you’re upset and now he’s mad because i sound upset and blows up about that and I’m dead ass like what do you want from me I’m apologizing. He says the issue isn’t that anymore blah blah. Then he leaves for work all mad. Calls me he says a shit poor apology about I’m sorry I got mad it was frustrating and you made it worse ?? 👀 I say whatever it’s fine I’m going to bed and he calls me again not even 10 minutes later talking about do me a favor I’m like what he says find my black work pants i say uh okay and im like they are in front of your closet in the floor he goes look in the pockets we find out his id is in there and I quickly say I’ll put on pants and drive to you mind you he works 25 minutes away and I don’t have to be up for work until 8 🙃 he says nah that’s fine I’ll clock in another way but stop moving my fucking shit it’s obnoxious and I say um I didn’t move it it’s sitting right in front of your closet on the floor. Then I say after radio silence I didn’t come home from both jobs and cleaned yesterday he says well my clothes were taken off in the bathroom so you had to have moved them and I say um I’m pretty sure the only thing in the bathroom yesterday when I got home was a nasty grey sweaty shirt and I got up while saying that and say and it’s still here but whatever have a good day I’m going to bed. Like bro can you stop me anything and everything would’ve been avoided had you didn’t get mad. I don’t even feel like talking to him. He’s always doing this in our arguments and I’m literally sitting there trying to apologize and de-escalate the problem and he says by doing that im egging him on and I make him madder. I’m not perfect I have an attitude problem but I always apologize for it when I have an attitude. And it’s just exhausting when I’m doing everything right and he’s just fucking mad for no reason and then blaming me for the whole problem.
Achieve your health goals from period to parenting.