I’m so embarrassed to even talk about this but..I’m 25 yrs old. With a 2 yr old and 7 months pregnannntttt.

Im gonna try to make a very long story short so I have really bad anxiety and have my entire life. Since elementary school I have tried medicines , therapy , everything that has been recommended to me and nothing has really changed it. The older I got the worse my anxiety was. It’s gotten to the point where even talking to people is really uncomfortable and awkward for me. I stutter sometimes even becuase I talk too fast (this has never happened to me before it just started a few years ago and it’s so embarrassing ) I also was diagnosed with post part in anxiety after giving birth and it seems like it’s gotten even worse if that’s possible

Anyways so I just never got my license bc I hate driving. Like it makes me panic. I get dizzy , I feel lightheaded (even if I’m watching how I’m breathing) I am in a constant panic even when I practice. I hate it so much. I have tried and tried over the years and I never get more comfortable. Sometimes I think it would be more dangerous for me to be out on the road driving because I just can’t focus and freak out too bad. I don’t even want to put my baby in a car with me becuase i don’t want to feel weird and then get ina. Car accident bc im so out of it every time I start driving.

Idk what to do. It isn’t realistic to never get it & I feelcbad for my husband. I know he eqnts me to get it bc he has to take me to every appt, and all of our babies appts. (Tak work off and I feel so guilty) I know it bothers him too. I always say I am going to do and just put it off over and over because I really don’t want it. It’s even stronger than not wanting to I can’t explain it to even.

I hate that I feel this way. I hate that i can’t be normal . I feel bad for my babies even. Everyone in my family is always asking me if I’ve gotten it and telling me to go do it and it’s seriously just humiliating at this point because no one is going to understand.