Insecurity, depression?

This post is mostly to rant but feel free to chime in with your options if you’re going through something similar or just have advice in general.

Now a little background info:

I’m 23 and 7 months pregnant with my first child to a man I’ve been with for over 2 years. Now personally I feel like being 23 and pregnant isn’t a bad age BUT because I’m of Asian descent and not married to my boyfriend my side of the family sees this baby as a mistake and that I screwed up my life with not being married first. (Asian culture is very strong on following the “steps” of dating, marriage, career, then kids)

My boyfriend has been super supportive of whatever decisions I’ve made regarding baby since day 1. It’s my body and if I’m not feeling safe and need to do things differently than other moms he’s been behind me through everything. The beginning stages of my pregnancy has been a breeze. But now that I’m getting closer to giving birth I’ve realized that I don’t have any support on my side of the family. It’s been strictly just my mom. I’m 7 months pregnant and not a single one of my family members know because they’ll judge. & I know that some people will say “f it. It’s your baby who cares what other people think” and normally I would agree. That’s been my mindset since the start. However, my baby shower is next week and I don’t have anyone to invite... everyone showing up is on my boyfriends side of the family. I love them all and they’ve been super accepting but it just sucks that I feel like I have no one on my team. I have two months before I give birth but I find myself slipping into this hole of regret... of feeling alone. Everytime I talk to my boyfriend he reassures me that everything will be fine. That I’ve got him and as much as I’m grateful for him.. I just can’t help but feel alone...