I find myself kinda in a dark hole. I’d like to blame my pregnancy hormones for it since I am 6w pregnant but honestly I’m not sure as I’ve had these feelings for a long time.

I live in Europe very far from my family and friends that live in South America. My family and friends haven’t met my first born son due to the pandemic and my husband is extremely scared to get covid so we have kept to ourselves pretty much these past 14 months or more.

I feel like a prisoner. I would like to travel to see my family. My husband also thinks it would be a nightmare to travel with a 14 month old baby in the midst of covid.

I honestly don’t want to sound ungrateful but I also dislike the country I am living in. I don’t like the culture, the language, the weather, and specially how far it is from my loved ones.

My husband is born/raised here so I feel like even though he says we will eventually move closer to my family he will always find some idiotic excuse to not do it at the end.

I mean we have one son and another baby on the way, and I do love him. But I am not happy?

Really unsure what to do 🥲