Scary things when I’m struggling

I’m sorry if this isn’t the group I should be posting this in but it made most sense to me. So I know this sounds weird but I’ve noticed that whenever I get into a really bad place in my life or when I’m constantly upset or angry or depressed or feeling hopeless, I really get into scary things. Like movies, YouTube videos of people using ouija boards and things like that. Why do I do this? It’s very strange to me but I notice every once and a while those types of things interest me