I had been seeing this guy since Jan 2020. We had a great relationship. Then lockdown happened and he was furloughed. He started spending more time with his friends and drinking more and more. At first it didn't bother me but since becoming pregnant its become something I can't stand. Over the past 3 months there's been a gap between us getting bigger because of the this situation. It saddens me because he is 40+ and still behaving like a 20 year old... I've tried to talk and support him and nothing. So I left him to it. Haven't seen him much as I felt he wasn't making much effort to see me at times I was available and only really wanted to see me after hanging with his friends.

I told him that I don't want to be with him anymore because he isn't treating me right. He said that he's gonna fix it and he's not leaving me. So I kinda brushed it off and said actions speak louder... so he posts a picture of him at a restaurant which I recognised. I called him and he was acting dodgy. I went there and he was with another woman. He had the cheek to tell me its not what it looks like. I got angry and punched him in the face :/ I know I shouldn't have but the hurt had been building up and that was the cherry on top.

I don't know how to feel.. I know I don't want him. He doesn't deserve me. It hurts that I love him. It hurts that I'm pregnant with his baby and he's done this to me.

How can I move past this?