Nothing yet

I had a missed miscarriage back in March that ended with a d & c in mid April. That made me realize how much sooner I wanted a baby. I started using opks after I got a period in may and got a positive june 5th and we bd a lot that weekend. It's now 10 dpo and I got a negative, I know I'm not out yet but I'm feeling so hopeless. I want this so bad, we had been trying for a few years before I miscarried and I hate this wait. I just want my rainbow baby 😭