I’m starting to dislike my mom

She always chose a man over us. She use to let her ex husband beat my brother and I with a belt buckle. She let her current husband sexually abuse me and not do a thing. My step dad forced me to lie and tell my mom my brother did it & she believed it when my step dad told her my brother did it but never believed it when it was him doing it. She let my step dad make my brother sleep on the porch with just a pillow. In a heated argument she even stood up and yelled that her husband comes first at us. We are all grown now but my past still hunts me and I get so agitated when talking to her now because I’m realizing I don’t like her and I’m seeing her for the person she really is. She think she does no wrong though because she’s a Christian

Edit: hey daisy, I was too young to think about reporting it. It happened from Ages 11-13 when I was sexually abused & between ages 4-7 when We were beaten with a belt buckle. I told my grandma so she moved me in her with her. But that’s also a good question.. I’m now wondering why my grandma didn’t report the abuse for us