Last Wednesday I took a pregnancy test because my breast were painfully sore. I am weaning off my 9 month old so I kept telling myself the pain was because baby’s been teething and bites me, at times. The test came back with a faint line.

I retested on Friday and the line was still faint. I was a bit worried but kept telling myself that no line would appear if there was no baby (as I’ve had negative pregnancy test for the first 18 years of marriage).

I was expecting AF on the 20th, according to the app.

So yesterday I retested and these were the results:

I am so excited!!

Then…

Later that day we went to visit family. We had a great time, but as I was leaving my brother’s home I fell. (It was dark out) I didn’t hit or land in my belly. I feel like my ankles gave out on the broken concrete step. I fell mainly in my knees and palms. Thankfully, the worse was just a nasty scratch just below my knee and sore ankles & palms.

When I was still on the ground trying to regain my composure from the scare of the fall, my baby girl started crying hysterically. I think she felt me freaking out on the inside. My ankles felt off though. They were sore and I low key felt scared to put weight on them. I slowly got up and forced myself to walk to my car. On the drive home everything below the waist was throbbing. ( I suffer from autoimmune issues, so 24/7 pain is not abnormal to me) Today, my knees, ankles, feet and palms are sore, but thankfully there has not been any cramping or bleeding.

My anxiety has been through the roof for the last few hours. I keep trying to remind myself that these feelings of anxiety and worry are not good for the baby but i am really scared to lose my baby.

*Aside from the autoimmune issues, I suffered from pcos which affected my fertility. I have been married for 20 years. Found out I was pregnant at the end of 2019 while at the ER. Spent my pregnancy, which was high risk because of my health and age, stuck at home & worried about everything under the sun, because of the pandemic.

I would love to have a normal pregnancy experience even if it is still high risk.

Has anyone experienced something similar?

I think I just need some comfort from someone who understands. I don’t have many people i can trust to talk to.