I want to meet my father...

I have never known my father. I knew who he was because my mom told me. She got pregnant by a married man and never told him about me. My father is incarcerated. He had 3 kids and his wife(she wasn't the kids biological mother) murdered all 3 of them... My mom was in shock when she found out. My father decided he had nothing left to live for when he saw his kids killed and killed her. So pretty much my dad is a murderer.... He's serving a life sentence for 2 degree murder. My mom does say she wonders if he would have done it if he knew he did have something to live for... A new daughter. Idk what I would expect by meeting him... I just really want to ya know..

Edit: I wouldn't be able to bail him out. He was sentence years ago right before I was born and I'm 20. I do feel bad for him. According to my mom he had the affair because his wife was abusive and people around town told him she's gonna end up killing him or his kids.... Apparently he called the police on himself after it and didn't deny anything. He had even said he would do it all over again. Eye for an eye type thing. I just don't know how he would react... He had nothing to live for with his kids being murdered... Then here I come 20 years later...