I feel guilty but it’s true

I love my parents so much. They are extremely different people but they balance my life although they divorced when I was young. My dad has been very strict and tough (but also a huge softy) with me and loves and treats me like a princess. He can think different and be irrational but that’s because he is from another country and that’s just how some things are. My mom was born in the states and is more modern but never seemed really be there in my life to support very big things like college or my future. I feel I was never directed like my dad has so I can be successful and make the right choices. I’ve had bumpy roads with my dad and we disagree on a lot of things but I always see that in the end he is always right. My mom always supports me emotionally and is there for me too. I just get a little hurt when she doesn’t act like my mom and call me. Days can go by and she won’t really check up on me. Where as my dad makes sure I’m always safe and protected. I just got married but we make it a must to always call at least once a day and FaceTime a couple times a week until we see each other. I feel like I would do absolutely anything for my dad and give him my eyes if he asked for them. Whereas my mom… I just don’t know. I try to help but feel sometimes it’s as if we are best friends rather than her being my mom and checking up on me. I have a half sister with my mom (this girl is so annoying lol) so that takes up a lot of her time I guess? She said she’s going on a trip with her to a Disney tomorrow which is the day I fly in with my husband to spend time with family. I just feel excluded from her life and she doesn’t care about me as much as my dad does. I know it’s just a trip but I’ve never gone with her and she knows I would 100% go if she asked me to or planned it with me. She’s always talked about all of us going. It just sucks that I feel like my mom doesn’t put as much effort as I’d like to. This is just why I prefer one parent over the other although it’s very hard to admit. She also says my loyalty is always to my dad but it’s just that she’s never really gave me a reason to put he first