Visiting with his gma

Tomorrow morning I am visiting my boyfriend's grandma with him and his mom. I'm in no way looking forward to it, but it'd be rude of me not to go. She always asks me a bunch of questions and I feel like shit answering them because I've been unemployed for the past 5 months and Ive been doing nothing with my life. I always feel like she's judging me no matter how I answer. She makes me so nervous. I'm currently living in Louisiana with my boyfriend (where he are his family were raised so they are true southerners) and when we first started dating 4 years ago and met his family later down the line his mom and grandma asked if I could cook and clean because they're just real old-fashioned. They're the literal reason I learned how to cook more than just pasta based stuff because I couldn't stand being judge as if I wasn't good enough for my boyfriend.

I haven't seen his grandma since Easter and I am getting way more anxious about it than I should. I always worry about how I dress, if I look like I'm trying to hard or not enough. I don't talk much either because Im just awkward so I feel like she takes that as rude and when I do talk to her because she's asking me stuff I always end up stuttering. This woman is old and cranky and tbh scares me a bit. It bothers me to death that I dont know what she thinks about me because that's just how she is.

Y'all have any tips for tomorrow? I know I'm going to stress about it regardless, but still