Pregnancy depression

There is no question or point to this post other than I want to anonymously vent. I can’t express enough how much I want this to be over. I have spent the majority of the past two years pregnant. I have had awful depression during both of my pregnancies. After my daughter was born I almost immediately went back to being myself. And when I found out I was pregnant again I completely lost it. Not because I was going to have another baby, but because I had to be pregnant again. The depression is getting worse now. I think because I genuinely believed the baby would be here by now. I had my daughter at 37 weeks and I thought your second came even sooner. Well that’s not the case with this one. I started maternity leave this week and I thought that would help, but the days are just dragging more. I have been trying SAFE natural ways to induce labor, obviously no success. I have had almost all the signs that labor is near for two weeks now and today it feels like they have all stopped. Im just so discouraged.