So sad

Husband and I tried for 2 years. We were so excited… then on 7/8/21 I started experiencing some bleeding. So I went to the hospital… but they couldn’t tell me if I was having a miscarriage.. then the bleeding got worse. On 7/10/21, I was bleeding heavily, and passed a clot… that’s how I knew I lost this baby that I worked so hard to get. Today, I passed another quarter sized clot and I knew this was it. I knew this was what I was afraid of.. My child, my love, gone.. I know I’ll get my rainbow today, but this is my third time losing a child and it doesn’t get easier. It’s so hard. I feel like I failed. I feel like I should just give up.. like I’m not meant to have another baby. 💔😓