Worst day

Today I woke up in really happy mood. Ready to start off my day. By having breakfast with my fiancé before I go to work. I was 5 weeks pregnant. Just to find blood on my underwear. I was remaining positive from the comments I received for some of the girls on this app. By my dr being positive as well. Was in hospital for 5 hours. Alone this whole day was the worst because they didn’t let my fiancé in because we had his 6 year old son with us. They don’t let more than one family member in. I tried to fight it in to have him with me. It sucks because the nurse said it’s only if it’s a serious matter like if you lost someone or you’re older than 65 years old you can have someone with you. I did lose my baby I had a miscarriage going through all the test and ultrasounds alone was a disaster. Going through all the talks and test alone was something I didn’t wanna go through. As my fiancé and step son was waiting outside for me. I was holding back my tears back so much. My fiancé and I really wanted this so much. Yes it was unplanned but we got so excited. It’s so sad to remember that last night we were giggling as he rubs my belly and kiss it good night. I been through so much in my life this one the worst pains I’ve felt. I’m someone who always tries to remain strong but today I couldn’t. Having to go through the ultrasound again tomorrow just to confirm it’s done. They said they didn’t see the fetus anymore Im still in process of my miscarriage. This sucks so much. I have to remain positive that one day my baby will come. It just sucks that I can’t even tell my mom I was pregnant because how strict she is. I wanted my mom there atleast. My brain isn’t here rn. I wish things didn’t end this way.