Wanting to runaway postpartum

Moms. Have you broken down postpartum?

I have 5 kids 6 years old & younger. Hubby’s long distance and home 1-2 days a month.

Have you ever just snapped?

I’ve been going without emotional support so long feeling like an empty shell then one day just broke down. Crying every hour over every thing.

Contemplated an escape to leave my kids behind, withdraw $10 grand, & to just runaway. Clearly that’s not going to happen. I have 5 little kids I love to pieces & a 4 month old. All my hair has been falling out. I picked up the phone & called 4 local mental health clinics and got only voicemails. So I went to my pRimary care provider instead to check my thyroid and got depression related blood work.

How do you moms lift yourselves back out of the postpartum pit? Single moms.. moms living away from family..

what’s helped you?

How do you recollect & find your way back to the old you? The you before baby? Who do you go to for support?