Just venting....

I really feel like I wasn't meant for this world. Im so heart broken writing this. Im so sick. I feel like im crazy tbh. I have never been a happy child. As long as i can remember i was always mad or upset with the world. With the way people treated me. I didnt have much friends. I was the last one chosen. I was the last one standing when people had to pick teams in PE. No one ever wanted to be my partner. I was never "wanted". Idk im just so broken. No one understands. No one understand my loneliness. No one understands how insecure I am. I just hate everything about myself. I really do. Im so tired. I have never been the one. Why would i ever feel confident. Why would i ever feel secure within myself. The world has always shown me the opposite. Im so fucken broken. And im tired.