Godly advice about my family

I am in an odd place.

I haven't talked to my mom, step dad, and most of my sister's in 2 months.

I just can't handle them right now.

They over stimulate me, are a bad influence on my children, mean to me and my husband, and are bad influences on me. I realized everytime I was around them it brought our badness in me like my alcoholism, perverted jokes, gossiping, and more.

It's always been that way. As a kid my mom would cheer me on while I shook my booty and belly danced, never checked up on me, kind of let me do my own thing, then forced me into basically being a live in nanny while they partied all the time. Grew up in a house full of screaming and fighting. It hurt me. I never really got the apologize I feel I deserved and don't think I ever will. I think I am still traumatized from it all a bit.

Now my parents are both on medication & are doing better. But the sin still follows. It's a lot to deal with. I don't understand how a family that is not perfect at all, has a crazy dad, and etc can be so judgemental and rude to everyone else.

I am at a place where I know I am supposed to honor my father and mother..but does that mean I have to talk to them?? I know what they have done for me and appreciate that plus appreciate their love..but I really cannot talk to them or be around them without it hurting my kids, marriage, mental health, and my walk with God.

What is your take on this? I need some advice.