leaving the group

hi ladies, unfortunately i will be leaving the group. my water broke at 7:30 this morning at 21 weeks exactly, we went to the ER and then a couple hours after i started having contractions i ended up delivering him at 12:46pm, he was too under developed to survive and they said it's just something that happened and next pregnancy they'd need to stitch my cervix around week 14-16 to prevent it from happening again. i got to hold him for hours. it still doesn't feel real, the pregnancy itself hadn't felt totally real yet and so now this definitely doesn't. please send best wishes or prayers, whatever you believe in, towards me and my boyfriends way while we grieve through this.