Anyone have a third at 39? With two boy toddlers?

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I have a 3.5 and 1.5 year old (both boys). This isn’t really related to baby names but is in a way…I’ve been keeping a list of names I’d want to name my 3rd baby, but my husband and I never actually planned to have a 3rd! He was a “hard no” which has been promoted to just a “no”. I’m 39 so not sure I could go through another pregnancy/birth/postpartum period. I love a busy house, but also feel maybe I back away slowly with my two happy and healthy boys and intact marriage.

Anyone with experience having a third baby and being doubtful? Or having a dream of adding a girl to your family after having two boys?

Thank for any input - can’t get this off my mind!

For reference - I love the name Olivia Colleen for my “non existing” girl. Chances are it would be a boy…haha!!