Anybody else uncomfortable around women?

As a woman, I feel pathetic that I don’t click with woman.

Both during high school and graduate school I was picked on, made fun of, and harassed by women. I never had a group/cliche. I was always a loner. I even had a classmate ask me why I always sat alone, I told them I liked focusing in class, and they said “well everyone thinks you’re stuck up and that you think you’re better than everyone else” 🤦‍♀️I could never win! I have always been active in sports and I even had a teammate threaten me once and harassed me for years.

So here I am, working with some amazing and kind women and yet I am scared of them all. When we are all in the same room I shut down. I don’t speak. I’m constantly fearing someone doesn’t like what I said, or that I may have offended someone. I get so anxious around women 😫 They invited me out for drinks and while every fiber in me wants friends, I can’t bring myself to do it.