Husband was texting an escort...LONG story

Hi ladies,

So, Saturday morning I was clicking back to YouTube kids for my 2 year old on my husbands phone because he likes to click out of it ALL OF THE TIME (LOL) and I noticed it was on my husbands text messages. I just happened to glance and noticed it was a weird number but I ignored it and gave the phone back to my son because I (trusted) my husband. Anyway, a few mins later, my son clicked out of it again and handed me the phone to get back to the videos, and so I curiously went to that text message again. This is what it said:

(10:35 pm on a Friday- I was sleeping, and we both went to bed together so I thought he was sleeping too 🙄)

Him: “Are you in ******?”

Her: “yeah”

Him: “how long?”

Her: “huh”

Him: “how much an hr?”

Her: “$300”

Him: “oh wow okay, that’s a lot, but thank you”

........ my dumb ass thought for a second it was a tattoo artist, so I didn’t ask anything... until I did. LOL. So I asked “hey what was that conversation?” Mind you, we are in the car with the kids so I’m trying to just calmly ask.. he responds with “oh, and escort service..” he went pale and I could tell he knew he was fucked. Anyway, I questioned him and asked why in the hell he’s looking for an escort- one- he can’t pay $300 an hour, he can barely help me with the bills, and two-WHY?! Why?! He kept telling me he is being honest and he wasn’t going to lie to me, and since he asks for honesty from me, he was giving me the same and not lying about anything and was willing to tell me everything I needed to know.

His excuse...he was horny and was going to watch porn which typically doesn’t bother me, and he happened to click on the ad on the porn site that was for escort services in his area. Mind you, we live in one area, and he asked if she was in the area where he works. So now my mind is racing and I’m sick to my stomach thinking he was planning on meeting up with this person after work and giving me some lame excuse as to why he was home late. 🤷‍♀️

Long story short, I forgave him I guess? I didn’t actually. I’m still heated. I’m hurt. I’m disgusted. Granted, he didn’t act on it, but this isn’t my first rodeo with my husband. In 2018 he had a secret Instagram devoted to getting pictures of dirty panties from random women on the internet. That’s a whole other story. I’m sure my husband has some weird sexual desires, and I just kind of ignore them because that’s who he is and I’m a very sexual person as well. But, this escort thing.... it rubs me the wrong way.

I work long hours as a nurse, I am the primary provider for our family. I pay all of the bills. My husbands paycheck covers his car payment and food for the week while he’s working... and he’s over here texting an escort about her pricing?

Idk..I guess I just needed to vent. I know men curious minds equal to that of a child, but really? I’m just hurt.

Thanks for reading.

**edit to add- Yes, I have thought about what if it were a price he can afford. It terrifies me. And I’m not sure if I’m just afraid to be alone or what, but it’s hard for me to make him leave. I know I’m crazy. But it’s a tough thing..