Venting maybe

I just wana baby soooo bad. I just wana get pregnant again. I had a m/c the day before thanksgiving in 2019 with no luck since then. I just wana baby 🥺 I try every month with no luck. I believe the spirit will give me one when it is my time but sheesh I want it to be my time already. I just give it to the spirits to allow this blessing to me whenever it is aligned in my time. Until then I wait. It makes it hard I want one so bad, I be wanting to test before my monthly and every month tell myself wait until af shows. She shows every month. Anyways just venting…. ❤️