Anxious anxious anxious

My period is a little irregular, but not terrible. I’m typically a day or so early than what eve tells me. I normally keep track of when my husband and I have sex, but I haven’t the past two months.

I’m currently going to be 7 days late tomorrow and I finally got two tests tonight. I hate taking them, or buying them because it seems like every time I do I start right afterwards.

This time feels different. I get tender breasts before AF, but never like this. They’re so sore and I’m so hyper aware of them. Wearing my bra is really uncomfortable, sleeping on my stomach hurts. I’m spilling heavy from my bra and even had to loosen up my Shefit sports bra because it was way too tight. During a ride on my horse yesterday, the bra was struggling to do its job because I had to loosen it to deal with the tightness and pain.

I’ve had a few pinching type cramps that come and go and just generally feel bloated and full, literally like I just ate. I’ve thought a few times I was going to start but it disappears, and I typically cramp hard and heavy the first day.

Somethings different, but I hesitate to even think or want pregnancy because I always end up feeling disappointed.

I have my tests sitting in my bathroom and I know it’s better to take them in the morning, but I’m so anxious to even take one.

So for the night while I work up the courage to take a test, let’s all play a game on am I once again over thinking and I’ll start as soon as I take this test or could I actually be pregnant?