Hello Beautiful Goddesses, I wish you all peace and love on your journeys❤️ I’m wanting to reach out in hopes to find at least ONE person to understand why I have chosen to NOT abort my blessing.

Here’s a little back story.

For the past 5 years we’ve been ttc. We had everything planned out. <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">Tracking ovulation</a> taking meds balancing diets, you name it I TRIED IT. Through the whole process not one time did I ever feel like it would end like this. One day I gave up trying and said I can’t wait for my birthday so I can get this surgery done and never have to worry about trying and being disappointed again. Ever heard of “Be careful what you ask for” lol well I should have remembered that. Today is 8/1, my birthday is a week away 8/8 so apart of the pre birthday celebration I had a few drinks that turned into me throwing up for hours the next morning (I’ve been drinking over 10 years and NEVER thrown up) it was time to test. With irregular flows I never knew what day it would show but I knew something was wrong (well right☺️) so I took one and was shocked but it was blue dye and you know those things can get you so I took 2 more pink dye still positive well it wasn’t until the TENTH BFP (a little extreme? I think not) I said this is actually happening. I cried tears of joy nervousness and disbelief but NEVER thought I’d cry tears of heartbreak. Once I told the father his first response was “Damn what are we gonna do” right then I KNEW this would not be a happy moment anymore. I explained that I would be going through with my pregnancy as this is what WE wanted for the past 5 years but he had other plans. He expressed how he didn’t want a child right now and how he felt a baby wouldn’t fit in his schedule life or budget. He suggested abortion. I am against them and he knows this however he felt because he wasn’t ready I shouldn’t go through with it. I told him regardless of how he feels I WILL be having this child and we will want not need anything from him. He just continued to push me into changing my mind and killing this innocent child. From that moment on we have not spoken to each other and I am ok with that. As I completely respect his honesty I don’t appreciate it not being returned. No matter what choice I make it is my body going through the trauma and my mind dealing with the stress. I’d rather cry looking at my child than cry wondering how big they would be now. So yes I chose my child instead of love or a relationship. Yes I know it is not easy to raise a child alone. Yes I know my child will have millions of questions about dad BUT I know my child has a mother who is built for this too. So if anyone else is out there with a similar story or even just going through it alone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE remember you are NOT alone!!! I am here if you need someone to talk to and get through this journey🤞🏽

Peace and Blessing to you all✨