i need to get this off my chest

okay so me and friend we been messing around for about a few months now and tbh i have feelings for him but he’s not the type of guy who wants a relationship so i’m okay with us just being friends. and every so often we get into an argument about it and not talk for a few day and then we make up with sex. but we haven’t had sex for like about 2 weeks and this past weekend he was like ohh ima go see you and i was hyped up because we all have needs and those days he was going to “see me” he never showed up so i was upset. and yesterday he was like i’m on way and we are gonna have sex so i was like okay whatever we’ll be showed up and i was really turned on by it that i had got super wet and he was like wow you really needed this huh and im i was like yah you bailed on me 2 times and he wanted to do it again today but guess who’s friend stopped by🙋🏻‍♀️ yeah mine🙃 very upsetting tbh and tbh im just what do i do because this guy doesn’t believe in love or anything and im here catching feelings, falling for this guy and enjoying every moment of it but i know ima get hurt at the end of it all🙃🙃🙃