Infertility

Idk if this is allowed but I wrote a little passage I wanted to share as well as picture. Please no negative comments :)

Infertility… this is what it looks like. Buying test after test. Looking and starring. Praying and hoping that just this once you will finally see that second line. Starting because I swear I see it this time but I can’t tell. Is it faint? Is it an indent? Has it been 10 minutes yet? I bought clear blue this time and I really shouldn’t have the blue dye is hard to read. I don’t trust first response anymore there is always an indent line making it harder to read. I’m just tired, tired of waiting for “ my turn”. Tired of wondering if I’m crazy for buying all these test? These, these are just from today…. I broke one of my rules, I bought the little elephant buddy. I really shouldn’t have. Now I hold it and pray, pray for all the other women who know how this feels. I pray for my husband because this is his journey as much as it is mine. Every negative he holds my hand and smiles and says “ it’s okay, we will get there”. I pray because I know it hurts him as much as it hurts me. With all this negative you would look at me or any other woman in my shoes and wonder how can you still smile?

I can still smile because I have found an amazing tribe of women that help me through this journey. I have found a strength in me I never knew I had. I grow stronger and stronger every day. I still have bad days and good days but i just hold on tight and pray. This, this is infertility the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I am 1 in 4

I am 1 in 8