Birth story (TW TRAUMATIC ((for me)) )

This is going to be long buckle up. I will also start off by saying we are all okay and home now!!!

So August 3rd-4th middle of the night I woke up with wet between my legs I brushed it off because my husband and I had sex that night and I also was almost 39 weeks and was currently losing my mucus plug over the last few days. August 4th afternoon I realize I am still wet like constantly but no drip. My sister is L&D nurse so I decided to ask her and she said we should go to check just in case because I was GBS positive. So we go in and they checked MULTIPLE TIMES. My water “wasn’t broke” I go home and I had been having contractions and Braxton Hicks all week and cramping. The midwife in the triage room that night gave me a second membrane sweep and said I was about a 2-3cm and sent me home. August 5th I start getting contractions on and off and I think today could be the day! Finally!!! It’s getting close to bed and contractions taper on and off. It’s 9:15pm and I get up to use the bathroom I go and I take a few steps down the hall and feel a gush! I audibly gasped it was like out of a movie! My water BROKE this time. My husband asked what’s wrong and we rush to the hospital. I had no contractions getting there and not many when we got there. I was checked in put on monitors and waiting for a regular labor room. My daughter had a time just in first few hours we are there that her heart rate dropped. It was concerning but we figured it out. They give me pitocin sometime in the middle of the night about 2am to start contractions. My baby was doing pretty good but contractions started to get PAINFUL. My water had been broke for a while now and I had lost a lot already. I ask for an epidural because that was my plan all along. I get the epidural get laid down and they check me for the first time and they say I am still a 2cm.. I am so disappointed and don’t know what to do. (Keep in mind this is my second child had a great and easy labor and VAGINAL delivery with my first. After the epidural my baby had a couple more times of heart rate dropping. I was worried my sister and husband were also worried. She was okay if I laid on my side so I laid there and got some needed few hours of sleep. I started to develop a fever and my babies and my heart rate went up. They got that under control but she had a slow heart rate again and it was down for LONG periods of time. By this time in the day it was 2pm. I couldn’t move or my baby wouldn’t like it and I couldn’t move much because I had an epidural. Anytime they gave me pitocin her heart rate would go down and I couldn’t have contractions strong enough so i wasn’t dilating. I ultimately got to about a 4-5cm… I was so upset at the thought of a C section. I couldn’t imagine it and unfortunately my worst nightmare came true. Me and baby were doing okay for a couple hours which is how I got to 4-5cm. I was sort of hopeful but they already told me if it happened again we were rushing back and taking her out. My husband comes over to comfort me and rubs my belly at about 3:50pm. He said “okay it’s time to come out now Brookie” not one minute later her heart rate drops into the 50s and 10 nurses run in to flip me turn off pitocin give me injections and RUSH me back to the OR… My sister got to put on her scrubs (because she works there) and hold my hand while she came out. She was out and crying by 4:02pm… I was so scared and terrified and the anesthesiologist helped me so much. They gave me so many drugs I couldn’t keep my eyes open but I heard and felt a lot. The only thing I remember saying was I’m“is that her crying” they told me yes. My husband wasn’t in the room until around 4:10. I only remember my husband sitting next to me with her while I got sewn back up. This was so traumatic and my husband and I have cried so much. It has not been an easy couple of days. These are memories I will never forget due to them being so traumatic. I am thankful my baby and I came out okay. A c-section is no joke, it’s not the easy way out, it’s 1 million times harder than my vaginal birth was and I took my vaginal birth for granted for sure. I wish I didn’t and I didn’t realize what could happen just because a baby doesn’t tolerate labor. I have way bigger respect for what my sister does for a living and what she went to school for. That is no joke. I will NEVER EVER look at things the same. I am so thankful we had the outcome we had but traumatized to say the least. There are so many things I wish I knew before this. I think I am done having babies after this. I have my two perfect little girls and I am okay with that. Thank you for those who read. I really needed to vent after all that went on. If anyone can relate please I need more to talk to. I’m having a hard time. ❤️

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