Urgent advice needed

Hi there

I never usually write publicly on anything but I need some serious serious help and advice.

I am now 30 and my fiancé and I have just split up from what was a toxic relationship. I was innnnnn love with this man, the real deal! He proposed we got a house, and everything I had held out for was coming true. Except the arguments. He was highly insecure. Thought I fancied everyone, asked me not to shave and shower at certain times, I deleted my entire life before him incase someone tried to contact that would upset the balance. He led me to believe his trust issues were based on issues as a kid but from talking to his mum that’s not quite true. In fact he’s told a lot of lies, he is bordering on narcissist.

So I left him last week…well after he asked for my phone records I said if you do this we are over and he said fine but grovelled the next morning. OnceI said no more he flipped, then kicked me and the dog out at 7am. Luckily I have my mum, she came, we packed and left.

Now 1 week later I’ve just found out I’m pregnant.

9 weeks! I’ve wanted this baby for so so long.

I’m incredibly torn 😔💔 I want nothing to do with the father now but am I stupid for keeping the baby?

Do I wait? Or is this the love that really matters because I am over men! They can’t give honest true love.

Please if anyone has any advice I’m all ears.