Miscarriage

It hurts, I still hurt and I feel so empty, I don’t wanna do anything ever again I just wanna not be here this is my second miscarriage I so wanna just give up… I never make it past the first trimester… really need support, my ex baby daddy blamed me and said I did it in purpose when I wasn’t doing anything. He kept telling me that it was my fault and that I’m this and that and to hit him up when I’m done bleeding to try again…this is the second time when I’ve done everything right why do so many horrible people get to have kids and I can’t and fail every time… I just want everything to be better and to have a baby in my arms and the world is doing anything against that I thought my ex was the problem at first cause he was issuing m3th a lot and was an addict but my now ex that blamed me he was so healthy and really took care of himself and now I feel like it’s my fault….