Did anyone else lose out on life after having a kid?

My son is nearly 5 and I've raised him alone all his life. I've not had any boyfriends since having my son. I've not had any support so I couldn't work and now when I do look for work it has to suit around school hours as literally NO ONE will look after him. I'm doing it alone without my family even helping and I lost my friends when he was born because they don't like kids..yep that's what they said.

I can't go out and do anything, I'm always always out of money. My ex never had paid child support despite me asking a million times so I can never treat myself. My clothes are old with holes in, I can never even afford to take my son out to the cinema or to a museum or on the train or bus somewhere I can't go anywhere that remotely costs anything as I can't afford it. I can't legally drive as I havent passed my test and even if I could I cannot afford to run a car nor do i own one.

I'm always at home, we got out for walks and and the park but that's it. I can't do the Job I'd love to do as it doesn't support my hours, I have to work within a school because I can't have anyone babysit my son during school term holidays which is gggrrrreeaaaaat 😓 5 years almost and I have no social life.

My sisters are always hanging out with eachother and not involving me too, they sleep over at each others houses, go shopping, go out for meals and stuff and I never get invited along I just get informed of it after its happened and I'm here like oh great so something else I'm not involved in so I don't care !!!

I can't afford replacement for the makeup that's run out or if something in the house breaks. I could redecorate his bedroom but can't afford the paint ! So here I am forever in limbo, forever single. No one appreciates what I do