Lost in the echo of fear

I'm pregnant again woohoo! But I'm terrified I want to be excited but it is consumed by fear and doubt I had a chemical two months ago and a miscarriage four months ago and the constant question that is running through my head is if this is real will this be healthy I pray all the time and I'm constantly saying it to my self please be okay I'm considering on not registering to hospital untill I get past 8 weeks but I have no clue how to feel I'm just so scared an lost and if I take another test I'm only gonna feed that fear and drive my self crazy but I need to see those lines get darker, I'm so lost in the echo of the same things happening again