I don’t know where else to share my excitement and my fears! I have 2 boys (2 & 4.5 yo). I always had in the back of my head that I didn’t feel we were done having children, but I also was content with my 2 amazing boys!

This past year and a half has been anything but easy (same for the rest of the world). I work in healthcare, 2 young children, pandemic times, marriage was tested, husband went to outpatient rehab for alcohol addiction, deaths in the family, I developed terrible depression.

I was just beginning therapy myself about a month ago, upped my Zoloft, trying to focus on more self-care. I was finally was beginning to think that I was done having children and moving into a new chapter.

Well for some reason, my husband and I had sex for the first time in probably a year, no lie. We are always too tired or stressed. I had just finished my period so I thought we were good, not high risk.

I’m supposed to get my period this weekend and I decided to take a test because my nipples are sore. I thought it was silly and there was no way I could get pregnant from the above scenario, I mean what are the chances? Once, for like 5 minutes?! To my surprise, it showed a faint line!

I’ve been going back and forth with emotion- I was shocked, excited, scared, anxious, etc! I can’t believe this, I feel like I’m dreaming! I do feel like it’s meant to be, since I was undecided on trying again. But now that it seems to be true, I don’t know how I’m gonna handle this?!

Thank you for letting me process on here! I’m too scared to tell anyone I know yet!