Hopeless and stuck

I’m 5 weeks pregnant , the child of my father is a psycho-Narcissist and I’m suck in a whole different state.

My BF is always accusing me of things with no proof. He goes off what he thinks or what things look like.. for example, we live in the country… if I’m outside and a man is in his yard or in the area, my bf will come home and accuse the man of being there for me.

It gotten to the point when he’s not home I don’t even go outside because god forbid something looks like something… I’ve dealt with that for a good 4 months straight. Normally I’m a happy-go-lucky and optimistic person but I’ve let him kill my spark and my joy. I moved down south to be with him. I left the city, my parents, sold my car to be with this man. I know no one in this state or town, I have no friends, just him. But if you ask him I’m always out looking for the next best thing. He’s never seen or caught me doing ANYTHING. But I’ve caught him and oh yeah you guessed it, somehow those things are my fault too and I’ve made him do it!

I have plenty of stories… but skip to today. This morning around 6 am I turn to cuddle him ( in bed ) and he takes my hands off of him saying when he tried to cuddle me in my sleep but I “opened my eyes, looked at him and moved” .Due to that he’s gonna “ teach me a lesson” ( he says that a lot too ) and won’t let me touch him. This is not the first time he claims he tried to cuddle me in MY SLEEP and I moved. (Quick background story about me when I was younger I was molested in my sleep). He knows my past and I try to tell him maybe that is why I always moved and don’t like being touched while I sleep.

When I’m awake I cuddle and kiss him to death but apparently that doesn’t matter. So now I’m annoyed because I told him I didn’t do it purposely but hes still are being petty?

This leads to an argument and him saying things about me being with and or having other men ( as he always says, again with no proof just thoughts) I finally get fed up and say “ IF there was anyone else don’t you think I’d believe their better than you and just leave! “ this leads him to stay saying fuck me, etc etc. he threw all my shit around ( I had my things packed for weeks because he can be violent and unexpected so I’ve been uneasy and ready to go ) I had to call his mom to come get me. Upon backing my stuff back I see that he took my wallet. My wallet has all my credentials. I can’t go back home without an ID. He says he doesn’t have it but when we get into arguments about minor stuff ( which they’re all fucking minor) he’s been known to take my ids out of my wallet and hide my important things.

I’m just so sick, sad and stuck. I don’t know what to do, it feels like there’s nothing I can do. I came all the way from Mass and I’m in New Orleans. I’m so upset at myself. Just ugh. All this on top of me trying so hard to be strong for my baby. I’m just loosing it ladies. Any advice? Or just words of encouragement. Please…