Was blocking the right thing to do?

To make this as short as I can... I was in a 6 year relationship with a man who I feel might have loved me, but not in the ways I asked him to. Everything fell apart last year.

He has an elementary school age son that was living with us and I felt pressured to be sort of a step mom with him having no obligation to treat me as a wife even though he knew that’s something I wanted. To be clear, I had no issues with watching or caring for his son UNTIL I felt I was being taken advantage of. (He would go out and lie about his whereabouts)

I did my best to create a comfortable loving home for his son because at the time there were issues with the home life at his mom’s and I tried to talk with my ex about how I fit into the picture of coparenting and beyond. Education is something important to me and his son was struggling. I offered my help where able and suggested solutions to my ex. I was limited in my abilities as I wasn’t a legal guardian. It never seemed as much a priority to him so that made me feel a bit inadequate whenever I brought it up. I felt like a glorified nanny.

Among this other problems we had included him interacting inappropriately with other females, not helping with house chores, communication, lacking empathy, gaslighting, and an abortion I had where he made it out that it was solely my decision. BIGGEST issue was communication.

Moving forward I was becoming increasingly stressed and my mental health has always been a struggle but it was getting worse in that situation. Three things I continuously asked him for nearing the end of our relationship was communicate, romance or take me out on a date (not family time, this is not a date to me) and respect.

We were living in a 1 bd apartment and that wasn’t working so I kept asking him to plan with me what we were going to do at the end of our lease if his son continued living with us. He kept saying he had a plan, there was never a plan. So with this being an argument we had closer and closer to the end of the lease I told him if we can’t communicate better I think I need to live alone. From the moment I considered living alone he considered us broken up. Instead of following through on this “plan” or simply working with me to help us find another place he later admitted that he just didn’t feel like it. Our living situation and obtaining some sort of normalcy for his son was not important enough to put aside his laziness and help me.

So we’ve been separated since June and still saw each other up until I realized every time I saw him it was triggering me to have panic attacks and go into depressive episodes. I loved this man with all of my heart, I still love him and the only reason he was seeing me came down to just sex IMO.

So, I blocked him because I’m really trying to work on my mental health. I thought they were going to be my forever family. But so much has happened that I feel like I’m just another thing that happened to him. He blames me for our relationship ending because I left when I clearly stated that’s not what I wanted (couples live separately all the time). Yes it was a big step back, but he ultimately made the decision to be single. I asked him over and over what he’s getting out of still seeing me if he doesn’t want to be with me. No answer besides I still love you.

From him I needed a friend I never really had and the recurring hurt won’t stop if I don’t give myself time to heal.

I feel guilt, hurt, confused, some days worthless like nothing I ever did for him mattered. So many other emotions that go with a break up and now I’m just unsure if blocking him will help.

I just need help processing this all and really another friend because I feel I’ve burdened others with this feelings over and over.