I’m in love with a married man!!

So, I’m 25 years old and he’s 28. He got married when he was like 25 and he and his wife have been separated for almost 2 years now. They don’t have any children, they don’t live together, and they’re in the process of getting a divorce.

It was never sexual at first. We were attracted to each other’s mind and personality. I’ve been through so much trauma in my life (including rape, abuse...etc.) and for the first time in my life, I feel like I can fully trust and love a man. I had been celibate for 9 years. So after the first time we had sex..we felt so bad. He told me he didn’t want to do it again because he didn’t want our relationship to be led by pure lust (he felt like that’s how it was with his wife before they got married). We’ve made love 4 times now and the last time I screamed out that I loved him. He said he cares about me but he can’t be as fully expressive as he’d like because of his current situation. He said if he’s going to love me, he wants to do it right and fully.

Guys….am I crazy/ a fool for loving him? Is it all in vain? What do you think about this situation?

Never in a million years did I ever think I’d be involved with a married man. Sometimes it makes me cry cause I just cant believe that I’m in this predicament because I’m a HUGE advocate against cheating..but yeah. This is the situation. Thoughts? Advice?