Trigger Warning : Panic attacks

Hey guys this was never my intention to trigger anyone I’m just sharing my story. So I had a panic attack this past Tuesday. I feel like it was because the blue lights and the tapestry that triggered me. Just like the time I took shrooms and had a bad experience. so I remodeled my room so that it won’t remind me of that particular night. I regret taking them, so bad because they cause my set backs such as causing me to have panic attacks. I took them in may to this day I regret . I also wen through break up with a guy I went to go meet. He broke up with me that day and I was so angry that day. That it triggered my anxiety even more because i had so much anger balled within . I just feel like it had change my prospective of things like I have intrusive thoughts. I also feel like things aren’t real anymore I had bad thoughts such as hurting someone. I Know some of you are like get some help. I’m still in the process to finding a therapist. Today I went outside to ground and laid in the grass which helped me ground. I felt a little bit better than Tuesday.