I feel like a failure… COLIC.

I seriously need advice, because I’m at a loss for words. As I sit here writing this I have tears in my eyes and feel completely defeated. My baby is 3 days shy of 9 weeks old, and it has been an absolutely exhausting and saddening journey. The crying started two days after birth. And it hasn’t stopped. He’s inconsolable most of the time. We have tried everything: Gerber soothe, gas drops, gripe water, colic calm, 6 different formulas ( two of which were milk free. He was allergic to both and had worse symptoms than normal), sleep sacks, baby wearing. The only thing that works is the sleep carrier or him being held. I’m so afraid that I’m creating bad habits by holding him ALL THE Time. And before anyone judges me I was one of those moms that swore up and down I’d never bedshare. But when I say that’s they only way he will sleep I mean it. I’ve tried everything: white noise, dark room, light room, hotter/colder… literally nothing will work. His doc isn’t concerned and said it should resolve around the 3 month mark, but I’m losing my sanity. I literally never put him down. I seriously need advice/ support/ stories of other moms that have been through this. I feel like colic is stealing my newborn moments from me and ruining how I feel about myself as a mother.