I’m a little jealous of my best friend. We’ve been friends for 6 years and she’s like my go-to for everything. We are both on a team, and we both tend to be a little more introverted despite being on a team with the same girls for 2-3 years now. Obviously there are conversations here and there but neither of us are the center of attention or contribute much talk to this very large group of girls.

It’s my first year on varsity and her second year on varsity (I got held back), so last year we were on different squads, but novice year we were together

One of the girls, V, usually goes up to her and hugs her. They’re not that close but I could understand how their relationship could’ve grown in the past year or two (she was with her on varsity last year).

The other day, another one of the girls, G, went up to her and gave her a playful yet long hug. Even though this girl was on my squad last year and I am starting to become friends with her, I could understand their relationship because of how many classes they have in common at school and how frequently they are running into each other.

Yesterday, M, gave her a hug from behind while she was sitting down. This I was a little annoyed with because I thought M and I were closer since we chat more and were on the same squad last year, and have had classes together for two years.

I guess I’m just having a little trouble understanding how my best friend and I talk the same amount at practice yet she’s having closer relationships with everyone. It makes me think there’s something wrong with me.

And it’s not like “you don’t know her relationship with these girls” because I do, she’s my best friend, and I know our level of communication to the team is equal.

My best friend and I don’t really hug either. It’s not that we’re not close, it’s just that our relationship just isn’t like that. I was never hugged as a child so I don’t really initiate it. She doesn’t initiate it either, not even with the other girls, they just come running up to her and most of the time she doesn’t even hug them back. She usually just takes a step back and smiles.

I know this might seem really stupid but hopefully someone sees where I’m coming from?