Advice/resources/words of encouragement.

My son had his 15 month appointment yesterday. His pediatrician sent a referral to have him evaluated for autism.

My husband and I had concerns for awhile now. I finally decided to bring it up to his doctor yesterday because I actually took the time to sit down and make a list of all the things I’ve been noticing that could be linked to autism. After bringing up my concern, his doctor had me fill out a packet they would normally have parents fill out around 16-18 months, after going over it he said it would be best to send over a referral. We’re just waiting for them to call to schedule an appointment.

I’m not gonna lie-my world feels WRECKED. I’m hurt. I’m scared. I’m sad. I feel alone. I’m embarrassed. I feel guilty like somehow it’s my fault if he has autism. I don’t know what to expect. Obviously I wouldn’t love him any different, my heart just hurts that he will most likely have a hard time learning and adapting to life.

I don’t even know what else to say. Thanks for “listening” to my vent session. I just had to get this out. My mind is very cluttered right now.

If you have any words of encouragement, experiences, advice, I would be greatly appreciative.