I tried to contact friends and family for moral support but no one is contacting me back. Because of my medical condition it looks I need to shave my head as a part of pain relief (My nerves are overreactive and particularly on my head making every shift of each follicle of hair makes my head feel like someone is scalping me with a dull and rusty knife).

Ive taken meds for it and that has helped the rest of my body, but it seems the movement of hair is particularly difficult. I can feel each follicle and its agony. Ive decided to shave my head and wear wigs instead. Clothes and the like don't bother me much so I figure wigs will be fine.

However its really emotional for me. I grew up in an abusive household and I was told basically the only beautiful thing about me were my eyes... and my hair. I know abuse isn't accurate but it still makes me worry about it. Almost like "Little Women" when they tell Jo "oh no your one beauty"

I have my husband and he is supportive, but im so lacking for female support. None of my friends have contacted me back when I told them I needed emotional support. It seems so scary to order my wigs because if I order my wigs then it is real and ill be shaving my head once they get here.

EDIT: I bucked up and bought my wigs. 4 wigs with wig hanger for the back of my door and a head wrap for times I want to be comfy (can you tell i like a certain haircut) that means this weekend my big chop is coming.