Bad timing

Got pregnant and boyfriend and I are living in our car. I’m 5weeks and 6 days now and I wish the situation was different because I’d love to keep it. He’s saying it isn’t the right time and that we can do it again later but it’s hard for me to wrap my head around an abortion. If I adopt it out I’ll end up getting too attached and not go through with that. I have an appointment to terminate in a few days, should I go through with it?