3rd bfn today. Dont know why I keep testing...I'm just so desperate to be a momma I guess...to see that bfp that I'm slowly realizing I probably won't see.

Been with husband for almost 8 years now; And he isn't able to produce so we have to go through AI. Its a grueling process and im not looking forward to having to go through it again. I really thought this was my month. When they ask you " what do you want to be when you grow up?" Some say astronaut, some say firefighter, or ballerina..mine was always " to be a mom"

I'm waking up crying at this point because I just feel in my heart my dreams aren't going to come true any time soon.