Hi everyone, so I need to vent over a situation that happened. Ive been in a relationship with my bf for 6 yrs now and for the past three weeks we have not been talking. He hasnt been talking to me because hes mad at me. So three weeks ago iwas at his house drinking and idrank a little too much to where iblacked out for a moment. The thing with me is that when iget to that point iget emotional. Ido not know if it is because of my childhood that istart to let my emotions out or like he says that im dramatic? (Idid not have a happy childhood growing up, alcoholic father, abusive physically and emotionally, loss of a brother, and was molested). Anyways so that night iwas crying and ido not know why because iblacked out and in the middle of my blackout igot my conscious back and iwas in a car (uber), iwas confussed and scared because icould not remember how igot there or where iwas going. Iasked the person driving to take me back and the lady replied did you forget something and ijust said yes. Igot back and my bf was so pissed at me that he started yelling at me for being “dramatic”. He didnt even let me explain that i returned because iwas scared. I ended up crying even more and iwent to talk to his mother and then ended up sleeping over with him. The next morning came and he was still so pissed off at me because he needed to go to work but had to drop me off at my house first. Since then he hasnt talked to me. Ive texted him asking him if we could talk and he would go off on me and make me feel like shit. Then hed ask me to give him more time to calm down because hes still so pissed at me. Idont understand how something like this can get him so pissed off when he has done similar things that would get me mad too but iwould not hold it over his head and make him feel like shit. I am mad and sad still…idk wht to do. When he gets drunk he start doing crazy stuff like driving his dirt bike in the streets illegally and he has guns, he starts messing with them and i get mad at him but not to the same extent in which he gets mad at me for CRYING! I have gotten blacked out twice my whole life. The first time was really bad that is why i have been cautious about drinking and i even stopped drinking for a while so this time when i drank i was drinking with him because he bought me the beer. I was fine until i just blacked out. He says this had happened three times i know it was only twice with this last time. The other time he is talking about i wasnt even blacked out. I was drunk but i knew what i was doing. That time i decided to walk home from his house at 1 in the morning because he decided to disrespect me in front of his homeboy by talking about his ex saying that she was fine. I was hurt so i decided to walk and he didnt even notice i was gone, his homeboy was the one walking behind me to see that i got home safe. He didnt realize til later and he asked his neighbor to take him to look for me. I was already walking around the corner from my house when i see him pull up in a car with his other homeboy and he was pissed at me. He was so mad that it didnt even matter why i was mad. At that point i was more sad than mad for what he said. Yet, hes always the one that ends up mad and even when i get mad he just gets mad. So when do I get to be mad?