I Don't Know What I Did to Deserve My Fiance

Last night was absolutely brutal with period cramps, and while my periods are normally rough to begin with, this one is probably the worst it's been in 6 or so years. I got out of bed to go to the couch cause my fiance had to be up early this morning for work and I really didn't wanna disturb his sleep with my restlessness and being noisy. It was hurting so bad I had to throw my breathing into manual mode and it sounded awful. Unfortunately he noticed I was leaving and asked if I was going to the bathroom. I told him no, I was going to the couch because I was in a lot of pain and he was like "...are you coming back?" I told him probably not as I wanted him to sleep and didn't wanna bother him and went to the couch.

I couldn't even lay down once I got to the couch. I swear to God it felt like someone heated a chainsaw until it was red-hot and then turned that shit on in my abdomen. I curled up in a ball and cried and I could not stop. Now when I say cry I don't mean like, howling and sobbing loudly. I wanted to, but that would've defeated the purpose of me going to the living room anyways to not disturb my fiance. I also got feverish from the pain as well, I don't remember much else going on cause I was just praying the pain would stop and I could just get a little bit of sleep. I guess even though I was trying to be quiet my fiance still heard me, cause he came out and turned on a lamp.

I bet I looked pathetic curled up there clutching my side and crying, but he was so sweet. He asked me to come back to bed, but at that point I couldn't even move. He came over and started kissing the top of my head, then went and got me painkillers and water. He comforted me and when I was able to move he helped me back to bed and made sure I brought tissues in case I still needed to cry. He helped me get settled and rubbed my abdomen while kissing my forehead and talking softly to me. He was straight up exhausted and even had allergy meds in his system making him more drowsy but he made sure I was okay before he knocked out. Even after he fell asleep it was like he was still checking on me. We normally sleep with our backs to each other barely touching, but last night he snuggled in closer and was gently pressed against me, and he held my hand until I had to readjust a bit for comfort. And then when he woke up this morning he asked me if I felt any better (unfortunately I do not) he told me to just rest, and he'll make dinner when he comes home so I don't have to stand which hurts so much. I feel bad my period has me incapacitated and bedridden, but I'm so lucky he takes care of me so well. I can't get over how he held me and rubbed my abdomen where it hurt, and kept kissing my forehead even though he was on the verge of falling asleep himself. He couldn't even keep his eyes open, but he had to make sure I was okay before he let himself sleep. It just felt so tender and even though I feel like absolute garbage I know I'll be okay.

EDIT: He came home for lunch to check up on me and he brought chocolate to help me feel better. I also read him this post and when I got to the part where I said I bet I looked pathetic he laughed and said I looked like a little goblin lol. He doesn't remember much cause of the allergy meds making him tired but he remembers I looked like a little goblin. He doesn't consider what he did as "taking care of me" because to him he didn't do anything special. Maybe I'm just being a sappy person but the little things like checking up on me, letting me wear his shirts so I'm more comfortable, and even bringing me chocolates when he didn't have to say "I love you!" without having to actually say it. I appreciate him so much.