I'm catching alot of heat for making this decision but my gut is telling me otherwise

I have been with my on/off boyfriend from high school for 4 years now. We were on/off in high school, reconnected two years after, committed shortly after. Now I was raised that struggle love is the way to go. You know expect a man to lie, cheat, etc. I was also raised on gender roles and respectability I believed in these things in the beginning it is the reason why I allowed myself to be used and mistreated fore warning!

My now ex is a selfish lover, always has been I just took it because I thought I was supposed to. Many, many, many times he would solely have me sucking him off at first I was horrible it would take a while but he complained I really wanted to please him so I improved when I did he started getting more oral throughout the day, he had multiple nuts a day and it was only if he was feeling good would we have vaginal intercourse. Me not having sense took it as well at least I don't have to worry about getting pregnant this for go on until earlier this year.

We had a routine we both worked but I cooked, kept the house clean and kept it up; decorating, fengshui the place. He'd host parties expected me to serve the food and clean after. I lost myself, I was sexually frustrated and just not happy then I came across tiktok I saw so much content about being loved correctly it was coming in waves! I started to talking to him his good quality was he is good at communicating we talked about making sex more interesting he entertained the idea but ultimately he was happy with how things were. We'd always end up agreeing to disagree respectfully.

8 months of talking and getting nowhere but I started a self care routine that he noticed and he wanted oral alot more. I would say not tonight he goes "I'll give you a few pumps if you do it" to which I still said no. If wanting sex wasn't mutual between us I wasn't doing it. I noticed that our relationship was nothing so I made reservations at California Dreaming to have one last conversation with him, I let him know I wasn't happy and sexually frustrated, he asked what he needed to do, I told him help out and think about my needs sexually he said he couldn't. We finished dinner, I paid the bill, we left in separate cars, he went to work, I went to the apartment and packed my things.

I didnt say a word to him, left a note saying "goodbye for good" and my parents are livid, saying he was a great catch solely because he had a great job. They've been up my ass ever since especially about me blocking him. I don't live with them I live with my sister FYI.