Another year I’m spending the holidays feeling loney

My daughter got to spend only 1 Christmas with her father, my ex fiancé. She’s only two almost 3 but last year we were going through so much we was away from each other cause of his lies and cheating, I was pregnant and depressed last year. Now this year we are not talking again, I left him for good and I’m so lonely I don’t even want to be with my family I just

Want to lay in bed all day for the holidays. They asked me to come but I’d really just rather be alone I’ve been through so much these past years I don’t think they understand Bc I act like I’m ok towards them so I don’t have to tell them all of my business. Being in a DV shelter now I’m so alone and miss having my own family and having my daughter with her father. But he’s out entertaining someone else’s baby mother and kid.. all of this is a result of his actions. I made the decision to leave cause it’s wats best for me and my daughter but I’m still hurt and lonely while he already has someone in the house, on to the next and we’re dealing with court issues. 😞